I've always mulled over people who are uptight during sex. This guy I used to date would tell me that I couldn't speak when we were having sex. Not one peep. Obviously I don't have sex with him anymore, but I grabbed brunch with him a few days ago and besides the fact that he's crazy and he's not getting any saner (which is a whole other story...), that whole non speaking thing was on my mind.
He tells me that he's always found me sexy and loves fucking me, but then...why can't I speak? I felt like I could never satisfy him. I was cold. I was hot. I wore conservative clothes and slutty clothes. I've eye fucked him. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. We broke up after like a month (about two years ago) and kept in contact with one another.
But then, we're watching this show after brunch and he's telling me how he has a crush on one of these actors.
"I love him.", he said. "He's so good looking. I have such a crush on him." as he smiled wistfully at the T.V..
I have gay friends and everything, but I guess it's just weird that some guy you used to date seems more interested in some guy on TV rather than your exposed back and the above mentioned eye fucking. Was he just not that interested?
I told him afterwards via IM that I had wanted to fuck him. He said he had missed the signs and that I should've just grabbed his balls. I told him that since he hadn't replied to my signs I didn't want to push any further and possibly....terrify him. Then he said that maybe it was a good thing, because I had always been too good for him sexually. Too into it for him to deal with. I think it had made him feel uncomfortable, although if he had confidence and was ok in bed, that is far better than being great in bed and having no confidence.
So it's weird.
And as far as my sexual prowness goes, well... remember that scene in "American Beauty" where Annette Bening is getting fucked by that real estate guy? That's me, except not as obnoxious sounding.
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