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I have discovered how to post using the mobile link that blogger has provided! Touching!

Anyway, I'll be off of wellbutrin in a month.Yesterday, I spoke to my doctor about it. We had such a funny conversation. I guess that since he wasn't the doctor who first prescribed my anti-depressants, he couldn't remember why I got on them in the first place.he had my file though, but I've seen my file and the crappy handwriting in it from past doctor's. I refreshed his memory with stories about court battles, drunk step mothers, nefarious sibilings, past unresolved issues, poor eating habits and lack of steady job.

He replied, "Well, in some cases when people go on anti-depressants, it's hard to find the underlying cause of it all. Yours is pretty obvious though.".he then told me that we would have to do it slowly, as he didn't want to jolt my system too much. So for the next month I'll be on 150mg xl, instead of only 300mg xl.

When he asked me why I wanted to come off of them, I told him that I had a couple of reasons. They are listed as follows.

1. The pill makes me nauseous for the first half of the day. Not in a "can't get out of bed" way, but in a "bleh" kind of way. It's uncomfortable.

2. I had a heart palpitation the other day which totally freaked me out, considering it happened when I was stepping onto a crowded six train at fifty-ninth street. I stopped walking for a second, and was promptly shoved forward. Ah, New York.

3. I used to think that everyone was generally a "good " person. As in, their morals would stop them from doing anything "wrong" to another person. Generally speaking. However, this was not the case and only my UES friends do this. Everyone else lacks this here and there. Generally speaking. Most men do not want to be my friend, they just want my body and will say a lot of bullshit to get access to it. I am now aware of the bullshit quotient.

4. I dress well. I used to think I dressed terribly because jeans were never long enough for me. Everyone could see my socks whenever I sat down. I hated that.

5. I eat better and take vitamins. This helps my anemia greatly. I can definitely feel the difference if I don't take it for a few days.

6. I have a steady job. Yes, in this economy. I am very thankful for this.


7. I am exercising and taking classes that I want to take without training with some drug addict trainer who trained me for free. I thought this was because he was my mom's friend. No, this is because he wanted to sleep with me. Proven when he tried to kiss me one day and got all upset (and subsequently stopped the free training) when I told him that I wasn't interested in him.

And there's a few more, but my thumbs hurt. Lol.

And I'm going to Berlin! For Oktoberfest. I am so excited, especially to see some lamp posts. :D